Yesterday night, while I was talking with God, I was thinking about my spiritual walk and intimacy with the Lord. I began to question my intimacy with him however. I thought to myself, yes I pray, speak in my heavenly language, and read my word daily (some days I slip up of course). But do I actually talk to God? I do speak affirmations over my life and thank the holy spirit constantly, but I realized that I don’t talk to God/Jesus as he my friend. We teach (as campus leader, preachers, ministers etc.) that Jesus is our friend, but how many of us actually talk to him like he is?
I know he is my friend, in fact he is my best friend. He is everything I need and more. And he knows me better than I know myself. He is the only person besides myself who is with me 24/7, and yet everyday I act as though the only thing he is, is my Lord and Savior. Now, he is my Lord and Savior, but he is my friend too. I admit sometimes I forget that and once I realized that it made me sad and it made me think. I wonder, Jesus must feel neglected on some level because I don’t share my secrets with him, I don’t cry to him, I don’t laugh with him – you know things you would do with your friends/best friends because I had forgotten that he was my friend. So of course I repented lol, because just like if Jesus was in physical form, I would apologize for treating someone who was my friend this way. I think I get so caught up in making sure I got my worship lifestyle together, that I neglect the other part of my relationship with the Lord – the intimacy factor.
Maybe there are some of you out there who have done this as well? I know that there has to be. If you have, don’t feel condemnation please, just seek the Lord’s forgiveness and try your hardest to get into a friendship with God. I think it might seems weird at first because there isn’t literally someone in front of you for you to look at while you’re talking, but each day you do it, it will get easier after awhile. God already knows everything about us, and yet we don’t share things with him. He wants us to share with him, I promise you he does. By sharing things with him, he knows that we trust him and that we desire to be with him, just like how he desires to be with us. Just think about it for a second – pretend you know something already about your friend, but they didn’t tell you this piece of information personally. You found out incidentally another way, but knowing your friend trust you and loves you, you wonder why they didn’t feel comfortable enough telling you on their own. I’ve had that happen to me before and yes it did bother me (in the sense that I was melancholy about the reason why), however, I just waited for them to tell me on their own. Guys, Jesus loves us. I believe, once we understand that he truthfully loves us, then understanding the depth of love that he has for us includes his friendship, things will become all the more simple. I know I need a friend, I desperately do and that’s okay because having friends is an invaluable asset.
Psalms 37:23 (NLT) “The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives.”